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just a bunch of bile
the feeling of disgust
Created on 2005-05-08 20:55:38 (#7054098), last updated 2008-09-18
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BioIt's pretty fucking apparent what this journal is, and I'm not going to lie. If you've dug around enough to find this, you probably care about me to some degree, so please hear this: don't assume anything. I can guarantee you that you don't understand the origin of this, and you won't until I explain it to you. So ask me to. And if you tell any of our mutual friends before discussing it with me, I'll probably lose all respect for you.
I'm not as strong as everything thinks I am, and I am far from perfect.
I am a 20-year-old girl who was probably the last person anyone expected to develop an ED, but I did. And now, it rules my life, and I can't handle that anymore. When I realized I was scheduling friends and events around my ED, that I was going into near-panic states because I HAD to get home and purge before doing anything with my friends, I realized that I needed to change.
This journal is just my struggle. It helps me to write about it, and I am really just looking for support. I don't want anyone to encourage this behavior, but I don't want them to make me feel guilty for it, either. I just want to try to fix myself.
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I'm not as strong as everything thinks I am, and I am far from perfect.
I am a 20-year-old girl who was probably the last person anyone expected to develop an ED, but I did. And now, it rules my life, and I can't handle that anymore. When I realized I was scheduling friends and events around my ED, that I was going into near-panic states because I HAD to get home and purge before doing anything with my friends, I realized that I needed to change.
This journal is just my struggle. It helps me to write about it, and I am really just looking for support. I don't want anyone to encourage this behavior, but I don't want them to make me feel guilty for it, either. I just want to try to fix myself.
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